I feel...?

The past week or so has prompted lots of deep thinking on my part.
How do I feel about so many pieces of my life?  Life in general?

Love and Loss

Marriage

Work

Raising Children

my poor neglected dogs....

cooking (or my lack thereof)

~see I'm tired, and I'm rambling...~

These thoughts have not really gotten me to any solid conclusions.

What I HAVE come to realize, is that I have lots of feelings that I don't really have any reason for. 

No amount of rationalizing or logical thinking can change some emotions that I have. 

They just are what they are.

I have love, sorrow, joy, guilt, weirdness, and passion all tangled up inside me and for reasons I can't explain, they all sometimes come out at the "wrong" times.  I feel confused, messy, disjointed.

I have a healthy, loving family, nice home, stable job... why the heck don't I walk around in a state of bliss all the time? 

Whatever... I'm tired.

Come Friday when I start my glorious week off, my thoughts and feelings may be entirely different.

We'll see!